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crazy happy (1999) and trickle down (1997).





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crazy happy

tease

she's a tease · she's got your number down · she's a tease · the way she looks, the way she sounds · she's wanting you so bad · she's left the door unlocked · so you can slide inside her bed · she can't sleep at night · though she's tired as hell · she can't sleep at night · though she's tired as hell · pull her aside · let her know she's the one you want · can you feel her strength? · let her pull you under · will you give up your life? · let her in, let her take you over · you won't miss all that much anyway · let her in, let her take you under · so you say something really stupid · you think, "Lord, just let me die" · but she's walking, she's walking, she's walking on over · ahh yeah, she's got that look in her eye · she can't sleep at night · though she's tired as hell · she can't sleep at night · though she's tired as hell · she can't have no distractions · yet here you are · she can't lose sight of it all · she can't wander off too far · will you give up your life? · let her in, let her take you over · you won't miss all that much anyway · let her in, let her take you under · she's a tease · she's got your number down · she's a tease · the way she looks, the way she sounds · she's a tease · now you're stuck with your trousers down

vocals, guitar, organ: brenda · bass: al bergstrom · drums: peter niblock

 

willing

the time has come for you · and you will know me well · you taste just like I thought you would · you feel alright by me · it's been awhile for me you know · but I'm willing to let things just be

vocals, guitar: brenda

 

weave my way

I think I wanna tell you what I'm feeling today
that I've fallen for you--too bad you're three states away
it all hit me last night, I was falling asleep
shaking in my bed, these feelings, they run too deep

I need to hear how wonderful you think I am
cause I forget what it is about me that draws you in
I imagine you seeing things through my eyes
do you know how it feels when you're so happy you could cry?

so don't run the other way
don't leave me standing
full with all this pain

I can't talk, so I stutter
what I probably shouldn't say
I'm becoming too honest for my own good these days
I can't talk, I can't breathe
cause your tongue's in my mouth
I can't find my bra, I think it's somewhere in your couch

chorus

I'm gonna weave my way in
one way or another
I'm gonna stop feeling so bad
for going under the covers

you make me wanna smile all the time
you make me wanna jump in first for once
I won't crumble, I'll climb to the end with you
because I care
and because I want to

chorus

vocals, guitar, organ, percussion: brenda · bass: al bergstrom · percussion: connor hopkins

 

one step away

you say I'm only one step away
you say I'm only a few years away
I noticed you like to hang around more than most people do
but I'm not planning on having you stay that long
'cause I've got better things to do

and I'll walk right through you
you won't even remember my name
and I see right through you
you won't even remember, you can't even remember I came

every bone in my body says that this is right
so why do I feel so completely empty when I go home to bed at night?
now there's too much space beside me that wasn't there before
now that I've just up and left you, I'm thinking that I want you even more

chorus

can you help me out of this awfully tragic scene?
this neverending story has got me down on my knees

you said you have to keep on moving on

chorus

now you have to try a little something for me
try even more since you think you can't
and if you indulge in even one small break
then darling, you don't stand a chance

you say I'm only one step away
you say I'm only a few years away

vocals, guitar, organ, percussion: brenda · bass: al bergstrom · drums: j. matt keil

 


poor me

sometimes I'm up · sometimes I'm down · trouble will bury me down · but still my soul feels heavenly bound · trouble will bury me down · poor me · trouble will bury me down · poor me · trouble will bury me down · Hallelujah, to the Lamb · trouble will bury me down · the Lord is on the giving hand · trouble will bury me down · poor me · trouble will bury me down · poor me · trouble will bury me down · sometimes I feel like I'm ready to drop · trouble will bury me down · but thank the Lord I do not stop · trouble will bury me down · poor me · trouble will bury me down · poor me · trouble will bury me down

vocals, guitar: brenda

change

here it is ·
blackness surrounds you · blow out
another candle · slap some anti-aging cream on ·
and who are you kidding? · you look older than you did before ·
all those nips and tucks you paid so heavily for · so let's scrape off
the fat now · let's take out your laughing lines too · reinvent yourself
with a liposuction or two · what the hell is going on here? · all these
people are running round mad · first we eat, then we puke · how many
precious pounds have I shed? · why do you feel you should change? ·
what did your mother teach you? · your thighs are as small as
your arms ·but they're not supposed to be · I don't think that he likes me ·
does my ass look too big in these pants? · it always seemed like I was the last one
asked at the ball to dance · and what size bra do you wear now? · my oh my, how
quickly they do grow · in my mind, you might as well serve your man like a good wife ·
there's nothing else to show · chorus

vocals, guitar, percussion: brenda · bass: al bergstrom · drums: j. matt keil · percussion: connor hopkins

 

anyway

there's not enough time · to say what I feel · oh no, there's not enough time ·
there's not enough room · for more than the two of us at a time ·
the silence it is haunting me · but your body pulls me near · your tender voice, your tender touch ·
I should probably steer clear · the sky has suddenly switched to black · I haven't kept good track of you ·
you hold my hand, I stumble back · I guess I'm not quite used to that · my darling, my dear · so I think that I love you · I think that this is me · spilling my guts here · I'm setting myself free · what will you do now? · I fear what you will say · do you think that you can love me anyway?

vocals, guitar: brenda


sweet lu1laby

everybody's asking me, "why you gotta be so strange?"
everybody's wondering, "why can't you be the same as them?"

I live like I want to
like how she taught me to be
and your phone number is just one thing that means nothing to me
the reason I seem so happy is simply 'cause I am
and you stare and ask me about stupid things
that I don't give a damn about anymore

I've got my mother's hips
they're eight miles wide
they're not something that I flaunt but they're not something that I hide
you think that I'm a fool 'cause I don't wanna live your way
well, I think that you're the fool

everybody's asking me, "why you gotta be so strange?"
everybody's wondering, "why can't you be the same?"
everybody's asking me, "damn girl, what's your name?"
and I'm sorry I just don't care to answer you
this is not my thing, to be so free with you

I learned more than I ever expected from you
you hold me at arms length and yet want me to see you through
you're laughing, I'm crying, I'm drying the tears from my eyes
and you still want me to sing you my sweet lullaby

vocals, guitar, percussion: brenda · bass: al bergstrom · percussion: connor hopkins

 

Jordan

for my dad

Jordan goes around the bend
she never knows where she's going
Jordan goes beyond the bend
she never cares where she's going

turn on the record player
turn off the lights
this time she's not pretending
when she says she's not feeling quite right

Jordan goes around the bend
she feels as if her world will never let her in
Jordan goes beyond the bend
just like the other boys and girls you have to cheat to win

keep up her frightened father
keep off the lights
she sees some peace and silence
but he won't let her out of his sight

Jordan goes before her family
Jordan kisses each one goodbye
Jordan looks past every blessing
Jordan tells everyone goodbye

Jordan goes around the bend
while time has slipped right through her hands
Jordan goes beyond the bend
her days are lost, but found again

leave on the record player
leave on the lights
she's found some peace inside her
and she won't let herself this time lose sight

Jordan goes around the bend
she's seeing now where she's going
Jordan's far beyond the bend
she's come to like where she's going

vocals, piano, cello: brenda

pretty face

I feel like an idiot
I feel like a whore
I feel that I opened up
and you shut every door
think I may walk away
from this, from you
think I may walk away


I feel like I'm bleeding
I feel like I'm dead
it's going on three weeks now
when can I start eating again?
I just want to leave this place
I just want to float away
lose my head and this hurt
and I'll be on my way

I always wanted more than your pretty face
but you never believed in
what you could do
it kills me now to know what I gave away
I laid myself down
I got naked with you

I don't think that I'm strong enough
I don't think I can win
this game isn't fun for me
if I call you up, then I just give in
maybe now is not the time
not the time to finally say
even though you never loved me
please stay

I always wanted more than your pretty face...

vocals, guitar: brenda · bass: al · drums: peter

 

in the morning

in the morning I awaken
I pull the covers up tight
in the morning I discover
I fell crazy happy overnight

it's been a long time coming
and I've waited my fair share
the ones that I love the most leave
but I'm still kicking and singing
I didn't think I had a prayer in this lonesome, panicky world

people question why when they're the ones that fight
they're not the ones that survive
people wonder why while they speak their minds
there aren't more willing to take the dive

it's been a long time coming
and we've all waited our fair share
the ones that we love the most leave
but we'll still be kicking and singing
even if we don't know where we really, truly belong

the sunlight is peeking through
baby, can't you see the way the water stains have left my face?

so drop a line or two on occasion
just let me know how you've been
know that I am thinking of you
and I know you're doing all that you can

so don't fear that I'm lonely
don't think I'm just wasting away
I hope you're as happy as I am
in that we're both better off this way

the sunlight is peeking through
baby, can't you see the way the water stains have left my face?

in the morning I awaken
I pull the covers up tight
in the morning I discover
I fell crazy happy overnight

vocals, guitar: brenda


trickle down

trickle down

there was this girl that I knew
she stood when straight about 5'2"
she had big bones but a body that could
knock 'em dead
she'd reel them in, then change her
mind and reel 'em back again
yeah, I knew this girl a long time ago

she'd sit you down to talk around all
the things she wanted you to know
she'd trickle down you
all around you
so you couldn't let her go

I'd fire away and she'd listen as I'd
ramble in her ear
and I found strength in her reason
I found myself in her, dear

everyone will look
everyone will judge
don't look away
don't let them see you budge
I'll trickle down you
all around you
so you can't let me go
it's not only sad but it's something that's true
bad days come more often than good days do
maybe for a minute, maybe for a day
I can mean more to you than you do to me

I can see she can see me now
lying on the floor once again
caught in this time and this space where I
don't fit in
I think I was saved because she let me ramble
in her ear
I found strength in her reason
oh, I found myself in her, dear

I won't look
I won't judge
if you don't break
if you don't budge
they'll trickle down you
all around you
so you can't let them go

let them go...

 

5,000 miles

5,000 miles to go before we're there
time has no meaning
now we're off to god knows where

it's 3 a.m. and you're slowly closing in
it's not the same here
it's not what it's always been

chorus:
and when you speak it sounds sweeter
than anyone else around
and when you laugh it sounds louder
than any laugh I've ever found

one week, that's all it took to know that this was right
you kissed me first and I kissed you back
I've never felt more safe than I did that night

chorus

red and sweet your hair lays perfectly against my cheek
I wanna be the romantic one and sweep you off your feet

so finally I decided to leave my doubts behind
it doesn't matter what they say
I've found something most people never find

chorus

 

drag

you can play the fool
you can try to keep score
but if you wrestle with the devil, you can fight
your own war
cause where it is you're headed, you're not going
there with me
I'd like to hold your hand but I'd much rather
like to see
my nights get longer and my days get less slow
I look like some sorry case on some sorry t.v. show
all I say is precious
all I do is good
all you see is all you get
I thought it was understood

chorus:
that you are not who I need
you are just one to drag along behind me
down to where I'm headed, down to where I am
you never asked what I meant by what I
did or what I said
you never asked, so how can you blame me
the one who tried to explain
me, the one who felt no pain
me, the one who tried to explain

I wish I could stop this crazy thing
that only happens with you
it makes me feel worse than I ever did before
it makes me want to crawl inside myself even more
and I still sound your name out loud sometimes
I still stumble in your shadow
I come cowering in the corners where you hang around
around the time you leave

chorus

she never asked you what she wanted to...


scrub

when my ship comes in, I will be here
when my baby says, 'the time is now'
I will stand my guard, I'll hold the flood
I will stay on task, or maybe I'll just
pull the plug

if you think that I can't see the light
why then do you talk about such little things?
it is not about who is faster
it is not about who will beat who in the end

chorus:
faded yellow teeth
your soul's cracked open wide
beer stained clothes, beer stained body
scrub it all you want

scrub it 'til it hurts
scrub it 'til it bleeds and I won't give a
good god damn
I gave you nothing of myself and you think that somehow you have the upper hand

well let's get something clear
now that we're face to face after all this time
you asked me to save your ass
well baby, I'm far too busy saving mine

chorus

dancer

I'm going dancing in my pretty white dress
I'm ready to go dancing in my pretty white dress

chorus:
but no one will go dancing
god no, not with me
no one will go dancing
at least not with me

I can dream of my dress and of all the others
and all I see is me by myself in the midst of
all the others

chorus


'til the end

you touch me and it feels like the world is in
my hands
I am the one who'll see you through 'til the end
you always thought I was less of a person
than I am
but I am the one who'll see you through
'til the end

I don't think that I'm pushing you as hard as
you say I am
baby, you know, I'm not quite the bitch that I
could've been

now I can see how much you grieve,
how much you need me
and I'd like to say that I am the person that you will be with all of your days and
all of your nights
but I know that I can't see you and me anymore
I guess we just aren't meant to be

I don't think that I'm pushing you as hard as
you say I am
baby, you know, I'm really not as bad as I
could've been


ring around your waist

my change jingles
my jeans feel tight
my hands, they sweat all through the night
and I'm scared to leave and I'm scared to stay
you can see inside me now as there's
nothing left to say

I'm getting up as you're feeling down
I've been all I can be and I've done all that
can be done
I'm getting up and you're staying down
there's too much between us now
there's nothing left of us to become

you pass me in the hall
you touch me once in awhile
and all day I think of your face
and the little ring around your waist

I snap your rubberband against your skin
you tell me to stop so I do it again
I don't really think things are as bad as
you say
I don't think that you're so scared that you
can't stay

I am dangerously lost and confused
and I walk and I walk and I run myself through
I am still too scared to leave and
I am still too scared to stay
and there's nothing left to say

 

95

my feet are slipping
I'm falling oh-so-fast
I try to catch myself but I only lose my breath
as I fall on the concrete, I feel like such a fool
I feel like I want to cry, but instead I just act cool

he's looking up my dress as he passes by
as I stumble to get my balance I can see those
big brown eyes
looking where they shouldn't be looking
looking where they shouldn't be
but I don't mind them all so much now
they're alright, it's fine by me

my mama said that I shouldn't like it when
those men look my way
but sometimes I rather enjoy it
sometimes I wish they'd only stay
longer than they ever do, longer than I
should admit
I like it when they find me funny
or even when they like me just a little bit

so even though I should condemn it when
people look my way
I know that on the inside I feel giddy 'bout
what they say
I'd like to think that I'm not like that, that I
don't notice someone's demeanor
but I really do and if you say you don't
I say 'yeah right, whatever'

peas porridge hot
peas porridge cold
I wanna keep on dancin' 'til I'm 95 years old

 

wait and see

I wanna go...

time has gone too fast
I'm not prepared for what's next
do I leave this place for another?
will I find another friend?
will I find another lover?
the stars won't tell you what you need to
know, I've tried that before
yeah, the stars won't tell you what you
need to know, I've tried that before

six months now and I'm back where I started
a different town, a different song,
a different meaning to it all
but I'll go back, you just wait and see
I'll show them all they don't know shit
about me
yeah, I'll show them all they don't know
shit about me

the snow comes once again and the
sheet falls on all of us
wake up now, my love, look me in the eye
hide the dirt, hide the scum
make my world white again
cry for me and all you've done
cry for me and all you've done

I wanna go...

 

tight

she said 'jesus, can you come?
or will you make me do the things that I
shouldn't do?
can you really preach that thou art holy when I
know what you've done
yeah, I've seen what you do'

you peel the layers off in slow motion
like you're dying with me and that's what
you want
but I can hear and feel and see you crying
no, you're not like that
you're not what I want

doo doo.....

and the floor I walk on seems colder than before
and my overalls are overused, tattered and torn
I feel the wind behind me, blowing on my back
as I turn to tell them, 'baby, I'm not coming back'

my figure feels odd compared to yours
and I'm crooked in places where I shouldn't be
those girls in magazines all look so straight
they're not crooked at all
not like you and not like me

doo doo...

who ever got the idea that beauty is right?
that my butt and my belly are meant to be tight
cause I think what we have here is
fucking insane
and I don't care what my hair looks like
after the rain

doo doo...

this voice

sleep with one eye open
fear all there is to fear
know he's not gonna love you in the morning
know he's never gonna know the right
thing to say

his hand, it seems, is getting harder
and his words are full of hurt
you hate your life and all you've made it
you hate the way he makes you feel like dirt

there's this voice inside you
screaming out for more
there's this voice inside you
screaming out 'I need more'

so you creep upstairs, try not to wake him
turn the knob and crawl in bed
this is not the way that you had
planned things
this is not as much fun as you
thought you would have

I think that you are mistaken
these are not things you should see
just look around at all this heartache
and tell me if this is where you wanna be

there's this voice inside you
screaming out for more
there's this voice inside you
screaming out, 'I need more'


crazy happy (released January 19, 1999) and trickle down (1997) are available at area record stores and online exclusively through the fine folks at Peppermint.

(distributed to retail by OarFin Records and Electric Fetus in Minneapolis.)

 

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